Zuka if you came in this door today,
the place you haven't seen in 9 months
I think you would be surprised at how much has changed
When you left the shelves beside the front door had my favorite vase and a picture of a mermaid, reminding me of the Anais Nin Quote, "I must be a mermaid, I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living."
Above the shelf hung a picture I painted, my first attempt at painting.
Your Urn sits where we had once placed decor,
the picture we used at the memorial of your beautiful smiling face hangs on the wall where my artwork once hung.
The living room once had very minimal decor,
now has a curio cabinet filled with memories of you.
Over the television hangs the beautiful picture Mr. Brewster took of you and your friends
Your best friend, the one who loved you like a brother...
Let's go into the dining room.
Jamilah and I had hung a monogrammed picture, representing our last names
Now, Look at the black and white picture of us, we took it the night you went out with my friends and I am we danced together for the last time. The night was epic, care-free. We sat by the pool after everyone had gone to sleep and we had extrodinary conversation, you shared your manifesto with me.
Maybe you want to see your room next? Your football banner still hangs on the wall. Storage boxes full of memories and clothing you once wore.
This is the room I sat in for hours, staring at your face and asking why?
Do you want to see the shelves of your memories, what remains we treasure?
The house you left has become a museum of you.
The family you left behind torn part, going their separate ways.
I wish you could see how much we miss you.
I wish you could have realized how much we love you.
I wish you understood that you were everything.
The home is about to crumble, it can no longer stand the pressure of your loss, I wish you could see. If you came home, this is where I would absolutely take you.... a tour of what you left behind.