Thursday, October 3, 2019
but then I wake up and realize it was a dream.... and though I am happy I finally saw you and hugged you in a dream, I'm also heartbroken that it was just a dream.
I have been pushing my feelings down. Trying not to think. Trying to just survive. All day the tears have been dwelling just beneath the surface. Zuka, it's still unbelievable to me that you are gone. I can't accept it...it's like you're away and you are coming back but you can't be gone forever right?!!! It's like that night never happened...I don't want to believe it did.
Oh Zuk, I'd give anything just to hug you one more time....